tossing and turning
like my stomach
that won't keep food down
(3 days straight)
I remember everything
except to take meds
that may be doing
more harm than good
tired of this dis/ease
stats going in the wrong direction
first-time high blood pressure
and I have not been
this afraid in a while
that my body
like mother earth
may be too exhausted
might be crashing on itself
body
has forgotten how to feed itself
broccoli
arkansas well-water
mother's cheerful dialect
somebody from Oakland missing me
like I miss Lake Merritt
or good sex
body
has forgotten how to hold itself
well enough
to push its recovery
ahead of any thoughts
that I am down-spiraling
running from something
faster than my feet
and lost
not knowing what I need today
beyond peace.
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We share so many things
I do not share your disease
but i would take your disease
if i could
take it and slap it around
beat it up
and give it the kiss of death
and show it how wrong it is
show it that it just may have picked the wrong person.
Or I could show it one hell of a good time
and give it my own disease
give it my scorpioness
then we'd see just who is boss, wouldn't we?
I bathe you in my tears Tim'm
the tears that i cry for all of my friends
for all of my friends here in DC are warriors
battling and conquering and winning
dis
EASE
Ya'll make it seem so easy
when ya'll are living your hardest
fighting your hardest
and you make me wish
I was you
Hey Tim'm,
I sent you an email a couple of days ago did you get it?
Sometimes the best medicine isn't a pill. I know because your writings have helped me deal with and heal from my HIV positive status. I do share your dis/ease. When I grow up (even though I am older than you) I want to be just like you--full of grace.
Stay strong. Be well.
Derek
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